By the way I
was some stories about my romance, someday I meet the one person but our meet
from the line chat. And than we’re to continue our convertation and someday we’re
making book the date, from it I can to know him so near. Did u know what, for
the first time I meet the guy so comfortable to me. Yashh.. usually I has some
of a man friends but he is very very like my soul. Every on beside him I feel
so calm and safety. Oh ya, did u know what, I meet him after I was broke from my
ex. I think its so stupid coz after was broken heart, I’m so fast has feelling
on the new guy hehe..
I look him
be my soul and like my bestfriends, he is everything to me, and than if I’m not
connection of phone I feel something is gone. I think its my dream coz I’m
always be happiness when I saw him, but when I ask my sister about him “hey
sis, what do you think about me? I look be happiness always right?, I feel its
in my dream haha” and than my sister said “hey,, are you woke up now! Its true
life hmm”. After that I’m so praying to god for please save him to me forever. I
don’t want to lose and I don’t want him losing me.
Oh ya, his character
like ignorant, arrogant but he is look like so loving some people’s like he is
loving him family. all the properties of my favorite guy type are in him all, I
don’t know. Its seriously and honestly I’m so be gratefull to god.
Besides all
that I have a very deep fear, yah.. I am a child broken home, so many problems
to came on my life and don’t know the time. Everytime, everywhere and don’t see
condition. So.. which is all I’m so afraid if him had thinking about my self,
about my fams etc. I thought when he knew all about me, would he leave me?, I think
yaa.. coz today everyone is looking for the perfect partner and there is no
starting back. Its make me so confuse, but I tell on my god “oh god, what
should I do now? I’m so loving him, but honestly I’m afraid with my condition. I’m
feel not perfect for him, I feel like disable and not match for him. He is so
perfect to me but me isn’t”.
oh god, I hope
all my negative thinking is only my feelings and I hope he is be my mine
forever. I’m really wanna to make some a new life with him, Amen..
